Friday, January 23, 2026

Music

Did I give them too much grief?
The harping over nothingness
The empty conformity
The void of who I used to be

Did I give them too much sorrow?
The mindless frustrations
The endless accusations
Too many unrealistic expectations

Did I give too much of the me I hate?
The lack of patience
The absence of grace
Failing to just embrace the moment

Did I give them too little of the me I wanted them to see?
The love of who there are
The joy of who they will be
The music no one hears that’s inside of me

Sunday, September 8, 2024

Blodhren: 2017 - 2024

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Band Members 

Blodhren 1.0

Ox Blodhren
Steve Boothe
Norman LaStrange
Allen Christian

Blodhren 2.0

Ox Blodhren
Norman LaStrange
Allen Christian
Joseph Caldwell

Blodhren 3.0

Allen Christian
Norman LaStrange
Grant Tomey
Ox Blodhren

Blodhren 4.0

Jack Ingraham
Grant Tomey
Allen Christian
Ox Blodhren


Album Releases

Self Titled (2019)







Hate the State (2024)





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Band Merch
(Through the years)






















Show Flyers
(At least the ones we saved)

 
















Tuesday, May 7, 2024

Calling

 Her calm, her violence

A whisper and fury

Her cold, suffocating touch

She’s calling out to me


A few gasps of air

What was once daylight

Gives way to the darkness

She’s calling out to me


The harder I swim

The closer she gets

Her essence consuming

Shes calling out to me


My strength, exhausted

My vision, faded

My will, broken

She’s calling out to me


One last mayday

As I reach for her embrace

My life becomes hers

No longer does she call out to me





Wednesday, February 14, 2024

Hammer

 The hammer once wielded

To shatter this cold, hopeless heart

To be rebuilt with two


The hammer that built a life

With every imperfect and twisted board

Held together with such fragile nails


The hammer

 The worn handle

The bent claws

The scarred head


The hammer that so fiercely

Tore it all down

To build it all back

warmer

Stronger

Bigger


That hammer

That has stood the test

Through hell itself


That hammer passed down

Called upon again

To shatter this old, aging heart


The heart

Not warm enough

Not strong enough 

Not big enough


This hammer must fiercely

Tear this heart down

To build it all back

Warmer

Stronger

Bigger


Where there used to be room

For barely one

Then two

Three

Four


This hammer

That has stood the test

Needs to build room for more

Sunday, May 31, 2020

Void

The sun slowly melted,
into the silent earth.
The warmth that once existed,
dissipating into the darkness.

We sat there,
in the last life boat.
A husband.
A son.
A void.

How do you talk to a phantom?
How do you embrace a ghost?

To find yourself the soul survivor,
on a ship once filled,
with all the loved ones,
you soo adored as a child.

All the memories, the feelings,
the triumphs and the tragedies,
descends into the deep,
43 leagues under the dark seas.

It doesnt matter,
how far you see the iceberg away.
It doesn't matter,
how you ready your faithful crew.
None of it matters,
when you feel the impact
and know that all hope is lost.

We sit there,
in the last life boat.
A husband.
A son.
A void.

Waiting for solace,
for comfort,
for peace,
for something.

Something to rescue us,
from this sea of grief,
this ocean of pain,
this emptiness,

this void.


Tuesday, March 17, 2020

Sleep the Angels Tonight

Sleep the angels tonight
The stars in heaven
Hold them tight

The promise of tomorrow
In dreams of today
Broken wings of humanity

All the hurt, all the pain
Crashing down in flames

All the fear, all these years
Rushing back, river of tears

All of the loss
Can't count the cost
Things will never be the same
Now and forever changed

They arrise
From their slumber
Pestilence, War, 
Famine, Destruction

No use to run and hide
The horsemen will ride
Prepare as you might
The angels wake tonight

Monday, February 10, 2020

Stranger

Should I know you?
Seems we met some place before.
A face so familiar,
but beyond that, just mystery.

Did I know you?
Faded memories or a touch of déjà vu.
A tangible existence,
Or maybe just a phantom fabrication.

Could I know you?
There's always the probability.
But the possibility,
Those are fleeting odds at best.

Will I ever know you?
If given the chance?
An olive branch for knowledge.
To a stranger, from a son.

Thursday, January 24, 2019

4

In this I find,
What lies inside,
Weary heart,
Healing.

In this I find,
My child's eyes,
Pure, innocent,
Openness.

In this I find,
Through lovers touch,
Warm embrace,
Passion.

In this I find,
This world, mine,
Love, forgiveness,
Everlasting.

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

Pendulum

Just let go this time,
The pain you'll hardly notice.
It always comes back as high,
You have my word indeed, I promise.

It didn't return as planned?
Try a bit higher, you'll be astonished.
It will cut deeper but not to worry,
It will come back, you have my word, I promise.

Still falling short, you can't stop now.
Just reach higher, the plan is flawless.
When you're at the bottom what's left to lose.
It will come back, you have my word, I promise.

The last swing just cut you in two?
What a shame, too late to notice.
I'll eat the half that was to be,
And give the rest to death and misery.

No coming back, you have my word, I promise.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Dust

Close, distant, non-existent.
Millions simply swept away,
For an inquiry that may never be revealed.

Cosmic dust, questioning.
Billions of tiny, weary, wave lengths,
Tossed asunder from a miniscule blue spec.

Barely vapors biding their time.
Measured by rotations and shadows,
Of objects almost completely unknown.

Do we all suffer because of divine sovereignty?
Or just the universe methodically grinding dust to dust.

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Matter

Do the grains of sand really matter
when the tide comes in
Do the autumn leaves really matter
when the winter wind whips relentless
Does the dam really matter
when the levy finally breaks
Do the bricks really matter
when the wrecking Ball is swung
Do the ashes matter
when the fire still rages on
Does six feet of dirt matter
when you lie buried beneath it
Do the screams of souls matter
When faced with the infinite void
Does it really matter

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Paths

Knocking, pounding, silence
Pacing feverishly, nothing
Black and white, blue, waiting
Part, parting, departed

The eerie calm seas turn violent
Waves crash, she crashes, all crushed
Gravity pulls heavier and heavier
Legs cave, the unbearable weight

When, how, why, now
Two paths cross, only one remains

The little innocents, so innocent
face reality of love gained, so quickly lost

Planning plans for plans unplanned
Searching for answers for questions unknown

Stuff, stains, sickness, solace
Two bronze keys, nothing else

Phones ringing, ears ringing, head ringing
Peace for what lies ahead

Two paths cross, only one remains

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Watch Tower

I stand watch
My enemy, laying siege
To cracked and weathered walls

I stand watch
My prince and muse, stricken and ill
Fighting off invaders within

I stand watch
My princess, so meek and kind
Struggling in her own sickness

I stand watch
My queen, beautiful and tattered
So tired, yet somehow so strong

I stand watch
My kingdom, weary and worn
The very foundations shaking apart

Come fire, come fury, come hell itself
I stand here, braced for impact
I stand here

I stand watch

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Door

Some days barely seen in passing
Others dominating the skyline
Like an ancient fortress of stone

Still ever present and silent
A fixture of mystery

The shape may deviate
and the speed which it opens
may vary with the rap of time

Still ever present and silent
A fixture of mystery

Will today be the day
Maybe tomorrow, the next
or 46 years from 13 minutes past

Still ever present and silent
A fixture of mystery

The day will come
When the keys of eternity
Unlock the last great hasp

The ever present and silent
Fixture of mystery

When I step across that threshold
and forever fall through the final door
I pray with all my strength

My father is there to catch me

My ever present help
in the face of such mystery

Friday, June 28, 2013

The Guff


Surveying the landscape
looking, seeking, searching

This foreign territory
albeit inviting
offers no path, no beacon, no direction

Paddling in a river void of current
Visibility, translucent at best

6 stars follow 2
Through the haze of grey
Into victory or the void

Suspended in mystery
Life in the Guff

Monday, January 14, 2013

No More

How did I get here
acutely aware
yet obtusely insulated

My hands are corruptly sterile
my life, falsely sanitized

Blinded by the speed of static
to the hurt and pain
that lies bleeding
outside my creaking door

With each passing moment
a soul cries out
a soul dies out
Silenced by the silence

I can't go on living
in this bleached, wretched way

One soul cries out
one soul dies out
no more



Monday, December 5, 2011

Grace

A life once recklessly driven and tossed asunder
Broken into nothing but jagged pieces of pain
Grace stepped in to clear the debris

As the storm of the century destroyed this feeble, fragile ship
Leaving the paper thin sails ripped and tattered, lifeless in the chaos
Grace supplied a heart shaped umbrella

Narrowly escaping the shackles of the valley of death
Only to turn the corner and face the ghosts of the past
Grace spreads its wings of gold and silver to quietly lead the way

A restoration of the condemned
A gift undeserved
A pardon among thieves

The blueprint for love
The environment of peace
The road map to humility

Grace

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Obscurity

We wrestle with obscurity
A matter of what matters
In an endless ocean of existence

Will our best thoughts evaporate
Our strongest words discarded
Greatest works forgotten
If ever

Will our very existence be something of substance
or simply become significantly insignificant
While some feverishly toil and others falter
We all struggle to create finite moments
Drowning in an infinity of infinities

Friday, November 11, 2011

Spoon

As some walk on a guided path
Others simply slip and tumble
Though fight as they may
Nothing breaks the fall

At times the free fall slows
Only but to give way
Another cliff
Another crack
Another false floor disguising the abyss

While some are born destined to soar
Others are aborted to struggle
Left to sift through the remnants
Of the crumbs fallen from a silver spoon

Friday, March 25, 2011

Hounds

The howls are recklessly closing in,
Once barely a sound, a hint of nothing,
Now viciously, their icy breath chills my bones.

Such a naive thought of being immortal,
No matter what decoys or diversions we pretend to spring,
Those bastard hounds always find the trail.

Such blood thirsty, cold blooded killers,
Driven through the abyss of forever,
feeding on every pitifully helpless soul that falls into their path.

We run aimlessly, hide carelessly,
But these cunning predators never stop,
Such a simple vapor on which they follow and selfishly dine.

The howls, near deafening,
Once a mortally tipped scale now becomes eternally balanced,
Does it matter now which ladder rung you futilely stand on?

A single common thread we all fatefully share,
In the end, we are all reduced to nothingness,
By the wolves just outside our door.